My Start

I've been months in wanting to say and express my feelings. Sadly there are very few who wish to listen.
Back before we all became parents we had dreams of holding our babies and giving them every thing we could. We all longed for a natural birth with no doctors or any other interventions.
We were not going to put our babies down and they were going to sleep with us in our beds.
Hahaha
I can see the smiles of knowing parents now. Its hard hard work and you get so much advice till your head spins. Most of the advice has whittled us away, make us less confident in our parenting skills to the point where we starting to reach for the hundreds of books that tell us what we are doing wrong.
We have lost touch with our selves so much we have so little self-belief in our own feelings we need to turn to a complete stranger who has no love interest in our family or our child to tell us how to “run” our baby. And the baby trainers get money for it.

I have stuck with it!
I have held out!
I do not feel that I have changed my beliefs, my morals probably strengthened them through learning.
I have cried.
I even tried to let my baby cry-it-out.
Ara I am so sorry.

So here I start my blog